Amellia Amell

I think I can pinpoint the exact moment I went crazy. It was a Tuesday, I woke up in my uncle's house and I realized the horse brush was yelling at me. Okay so that's not true. And I use the word crazy for lack of a better term. I wonder what dogs think about. Probably food. I think about food. Well not anymore. Do you want a Mabari? I do... What was I saying? Oh yes crazy. I'd probably say I'm more distracted than anything else. Only I'm not distracted I'm simply thinking. Mabaris are loyal companions. I don't want to stop. Daggers are faster than longswords. I can't stop. We need 63 gold coins to receive upgraded weapons. So I think. Tomorrow will mark the 22 year 12 month 52 week and 365th anniversary of my birth. I analyze. If an opponent is off balance a well placed kick will topple them. I categorize. Leather and cloth while less effective allow a wider range of movement than plate and chain-mail.      I never stop thinking. Always take out commanders to create a disorder in the ranks. I don't dare to stop for even a second. Varric, last name Tetras, brother to Bartrand, now deceased. Because as soon as I do...

I remember the faces of all the people I've let down. Father, Bethany, Carver, Mother, my entire family dead because I didn't take care of them. I wasn't there to save them. I remember each face. Each moment. Each failure. Anytime I stop thinking, anytime I close my eyes, they come back to haunt me.

So I think. Kirkwall is separated into 5 districts. I don't remember Fenris leaving me. Wolfs travel in packs generally with an alpha. I don't remember the pain, 6.3357 • 9 = 57.0213, the sorrow, the Dog Lords use Mabari hounds to destracts opponents allowing them to use long ranged attacks, the loneliness, Mages are not allowed to leave the Gallows without Templar accompaniment. I look to the future. The wounded coast holds a Tal-Vashoth encampment. That must be cleared. Not because I want to, Isabella, former pirate captain current residence unknown. But because I don't dare to look back. Hawke/Amell estate estimated worth: 362 gold 70 silver and 12 coppers.  So I think. Dragonlings are easier to kill before they become drakes and learn to breath fire. I analyze. Elfroot has potent healing qualities if one is skilled enough to extract them. I categorize. Night time streets are unsafe do to gang activity. And I doubt I will ever stop.