Salvanna Brennan“Salvana Brennan!” She heard her mother’s shouts before she even passed through her houses threshold. “You are late!”
“Sorry mom,” Anna said out of breath. She had just run from her job because her parents wouldn’t allow her use of the car except when the twins needed to be driven to practice. “I picked up an extra shift at the store.” She threw her bag into her sparse, dusty attic room and grabbed the car keys as she headed out of the door again. "I’ll take them right now.” She ran back into the South Carolinian cold and prepped the car, turning on the heat so the twins wouldn’t freeze when they got in. She puffed air into her hands and savored the small amount of heat trickling through the vents. She watched her mother and father shower her younger brothers with affection and praise before finally giving them hugs. They came to her and she wished that just this once they would hug her too. But it was not me
Her laughter is a lieHer laughter is a lie
The sleeves feel confining.
Moving with an awkward grace
That keep her from those
Her smile was
A little wisp that was once so big and now…
She lays awake at night covering herself with those red ribbons
They make her feel again
And for a moment…
Reality floods back
The pain sinks in like a dull familiar ache
An old friend
She smiles with it…
She laughs with it…
She FEELS with it…
She is not hurting anymore
It’s all gone
But for a few faint whispers in her ears
Whispers of the Others
She is at peace
As she watches the red rubies slip down her arms
Pain and heartache leave her for a few minutes and then…
The world moves on.
ShadowA friend, a comrade,
Follows me everywhere
I love my friend,
I never worry that she will be mean
Or that she will call me stupid
Or that she will ever hurt my feelings
My friend never leaves my side
A constant companion throughout the day
I love my comrade,
Someone who is always kind
Someone who will always listen
But when the lights go out,she is gone and I am alone
I'm OkayI'm screaming, can you hear me?
I'm hurting, can you tell?
I'm crying, can you see it?
I'm lying, do you notice?
I'm screaming, can you hear me?
I'm telling you things I shouldn't.
I'm finally letting the truth out.
Can you hear it?
The chaos I'm yelling,
The unfiltered feelings I'm finally sharing?
I'm hurting can you tell?
Can you feel all the pain I've shown?
Can you understand it all or any of it?
I'm showing you right now.
My soul is screaming out though me.
I'm crying, can you see it?
Can you see all these tears?
They surround me in pools.
Some old, though most are new.
Can you see them streaming down my face?
Can you even begin to imagine how many are there?
I'm lying, do you notce?
I've done none of this,
Yet all of this is here.
Bearly restrained against a closed door.
Completely confined withing 2 words,